Yesterday my pastor spoke on Psalms 121. This could not have been more perfectly timed. I have been stuck in a rut mentally over the past week. I have been struggling with loneliness again and haven’t been turning to where I know I need to turn. I’ve felt stuck, guilty. But this is my thorn. This is what I have to live with. I choose to be single. But how can a “good God” allow suffering to happen?
As pastor Greg St. Cyr pointed out, “God never promises to keep me from sorrow, pain, and heartache. He promises to keep me in it and through it.”
Hearing this was eye opening. I needed this reminder. Some how the promise of things not being OK is comforting. It is realistic. It is true. And it won’t lead to disappointment like the fairy tail easy life that we (especially Americans) like to believe in.
God actually uses the times of darkness for growth. The process of Him leading us through the hardships actually grows us. I know this to be true because I see it happen over and over again in my life. Every time things get rough, I try to rely on myself. I dig myself deeper and deeper and when I finally hit rock bottom, I remember to ask God for help. Somehow every time I turn back, He is right there to help. He is always right there.
Psalm 121 was the perfect reminder that I need to turn to Him quickly without delay. I need to stop waiting till I feel devastated to turn back. He loves us. God is not wrong for allowing bad things to happen. He is the one who guides us through the yuck of this world. Suffering is somehow, in the grand scheme of things, used for our growth.
My prayer is that you and I get better at not relying on our own strength to get through the trials. Instead, I want to turn to the one who will grow me through the trials.
1I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5The Lordwatches over you—
the Lordis your shade at your right hand;
6the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7The Lordwill keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8the Lordwill watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.